MM,
These past few weeks have been extremely stressful and I am really disappointed in myself and the way I've been showing up for my family; I have been snapping at my children and husband. My daily meditation (AM & PM, and the magical minute) do help, but sometimes I almost feel like they make me MORE irritable. I find it very challenging to squeeze them in on the weekends (my children are very small and need constant attention). I know how calm I am SUPPOSED to feel, but when children are crying & screaming, I'm stressed out from work, my husband is stressed, my mentally ill sister is off her meds & going off the deep end & my mother is crying & upset, etc. I find it VERY CHALLENGING to keep my cool. I have been trying to call upon "infinite joy' and the principles of motherhood, divine patience, etc. I'm just curious if anyone else ever has this experience or how I can better integrate the benefits of my meditation into life when things get tough?
BB!
It can be challenging. Try to avoid making yourself wrong for feeling what you are feeling. It's OK to have bad days/weeks etc. This meditation may be helpful: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzsQ4k9B148&feature=youtu.be