Van Van oil

You are working a little differently than I do. I'm not much for "charging" perfumes. But there's nothing wrong with it either. I would do it the way you feel compelled to. BB

Its not really supposed to be a perfume, although I would like it to smell good too, it is more of just a general good luck oil. I followed the Lucky Mojo recipe.

I actually mixed it today on the Full Moon, (except I am short 14 parts of lemongrass oil, but Amazon is supposed to bring it to me tomorrow) and have been reading your Blessing Psalms to it, (I did a search and through your Traditional Uses of Psalms and found all the ones related to blessings and took the ones I liked).

I don't know if it was a good idea or not. I usually have to do something, then see what I have done, so I can tweak it into being what I want. I am sort of a "hands on" learn from my mistakes kind of spell caster I guess.

Anyway:

As I progress through the course I am seeing more and more of my mistakes. The training has been very valuable to me. The foundation it provides gives me a framework to think about magick in so that I waste less time and effort. I have now started the Beyond the Basics part. Eventually I will get a handle on all this stuff. Thank you for all your help

(is thedcw going to be discontinued, I signed up there but it looks like you are trying to get everything on Facebook, is that correct? Do you prefer that I ask questions on FB?

What is is your objective in doing this?

Yes, I' d agree - Ariel has a very reassuring voice :)

Its a Kabbalah thing, all the old grimoires would tell you that 119 is an all purpose Psalm. However, I think if the imagery of the Psalm works for you, any Pslam can do pretty much anything.

Today was my first day working on my water body. This will be difficult for me. So I did my meditations. I used to do the Cabbalistic Cross, invoking LRP, Middle Pillar, and somethimes a Cabbalistiic Cross at the end. But now that I have started the Primer, I do the witch meditations to get myself acquainted with the tradition. So now I do the daily grounding, then the orb of light, I usually will do a 7 Chakra meditation,

And

because emotions/dreams are hard for me I added a 15 minute guided "meet your emotions" meditation. You know the kind, they ask, where is it in your body, what does it look like, does it have a color, etc. I had to do something because this part of the course is going to suck. I have Complex PTSD and depression. But No Pain No Gain. I guess.

I am a little afraid of recording my dreams too. I have insomnia, so waking up is not the problem, but if I get up and write than there is almost no possibility of going back to sleep. So I will need to get used to being exhausted, or maybe I will extend the week out and do it that way. Also, most of the dreams I remember range from unpleasant to terrifying.

If you have any ideas on these predicaments or recommendations on guided meditations or really just anything at all , please let me know.

@mark this is a wonderful post as I love how self analytical you are being. My feeling is to breathe and take it slowly. Enjoy the process of AWP and suspend any expectations of the course - you have already decided part of the course is going to be hard for you so you have just created a sel fulfilling prophecy. I've recently done this on anothr exercise and only realised afterwards.

I feel you are very tense and wound up like a spring. Try Ariel's Vintage Lecture on Unburdening Yourself

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJyPHLHamqg&t=12s

There are also two of Ariel's meditations yu may find helpful - Healing with the Goddess and also Cauldron of Transformation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ej9WtMQKrO8&t=8s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YzsQ4k9B148

We choose our thoughts after all and this is our true magical power. I think you are right about 119 - and it is a wonderful thing to know the psalms are there to help us.

I also had an isue with unpleasant dreams and Ariel advised I look thriough the unpleasant ness and see what was on tthe other side. Whic has worked - I do not know as yet what is on the other side but the unpleasantness has decreasd considerably.

I do hope this helps BBX