From a very young age I always knew I had this special energy locked inside me. It always felt like I could feel the Earth so much more deeply than almost everyone I knew. When I was little I suppose I thought it was "God" because I was raised in a Christian home, I thought I knew what the word "God" was. As I grew up, my closest Aunt let me in on her secret that my mother made her swear she would never say,but my Aunt told me she could see the energy in me.
She asked me at age 13, if I believed in "God", which I then knew that my idea of "God" was so, so different from what my parents had taught me. Now, I am not saying that my parents faith isn't real, it most certainly is. They are devoted to the Christian religion but I knew I was not. I knew I felt the presence of a power much more than I can comprehend and I knew I can feel the spirit of this power but I knew for myself it was not a Christian described "God". Now, maybe God is the power of the masters of all and maybe it is talked about in all religions but I have never been convinced any of them have gotten it right and it was at that time, I just realized, I'm not supposed to.
My Aunt told me of her devotion to Wicca and light. I find all religion facinating. In so many ways but I am in no way comitted to any if them. Yet, I knew I felt this power in me and the nature of this living planet has ALWAYS called to me but I guess I always just thought maybe I could be crazy and surpressed it.
Years later, through the connection with a stranger feral cat I had met in the woods behind my home, I realized, it is almost as if whatever the power may be just swelled inside me, I harness magik, I harness energy.
The cat became my best friend and I wouldn't dare call him a pet. He is a soul, maybe even in some ways a teacher or protector but he is no way a pet, He lives with me now by choice but I do not own him, you can not OWN a soul, he is Rin and he chose me to help guide me toward being able to open my mind and accept my gift.
I'm new and still very much a baby but I know what I am now and I know I am here to do good for ALL things in nature. I am here for the living, the Earth, and I am so happy to accept this light. ..