I don't think this counts as sexually explicit as the language I'm using is very matter of fact. If I'm wrong about this, please let me know! I really don't want to break any rules and I do really want to talk about this with some other witches! I've been loving participating in the AWP real-time thread. It's so great to have a community to go through this again to help with accountability. I've been on and off with my practice for years, and each time I come back it deepens. One of the things that have been consistent every time I enter back into my spiritual practice is sexual energy. When I began doing yoga years and years ago, I would always become aroused at the end of my practice. When I was meditating and casting spells a few years ago, that same arousal would almost always present itself. I took it as a sign and started casting spells using that energy - I remember listening to one of Ariel's lectures about sex magic. I've decided to re-enter my practice very slowly this time around, and have been meditating on the elements every day. This time, the sexual energy seems connected to water. Each time I breathe deeply and relax and feel my emotions, it comes up! I've been doing various things with it in meditation, like praising God, connecting with a spirit from a dream, allowing it to rise and come to orgasm while visualizing swimming in the sea (like in Ariel's elemental meditation).
I've become so curious about it as it's such a consistent and surprising aspect of my practice. I know sex magic is a thing, but I don't know much about it. I'm waiting a while before I start casting spells again so for now, I wonder what it means for me outside of spellwork, particularly the connection it has to water. I'll be meditating on the elements, the sexual energy will rise up when I'm meditating with my chalice, then I'll shift to another element, it will calm down, and the water calls me back, I'll refocus on water and the energy will escalate again!
Sometimes I'll start thinking that the sexual energy isn't appropriate for what I'm doing, but I'm inclined to think that comes mostly from my sexually repressed culture/upbringing. What do ye think? Is sexual energy generally associated with water? What is sexual energy connected to? What have other people's experiences with sexual energy in your meditation been? What does this mean for me as a witch?! It's so exciting and so mysterious to me as the arousal has nothing to do with any person or sexual fantasy but purely with spirituality. Let me know what you think!